Faithful, Extravagant, Papa.

These past 2 weeks the Lord has been teaching me about his faithfulness and provision (not just money, and man is he so good!

It all started when Tyler and I were driving in Brentwood near some extremely large houses. I started ranting about the size of these houses, and how absurd they were, how much money they probably cost etc etc. Basically judging the people inside of them based upon the outside of their house. Tyler cut in and basically suggested that maybe I’m not able to receive the wealth that God has for me because I’m judging those around me that carry wealth. I sunk down into my seat real quick.

The following Monday we were at Emanate when Ryan & Katie Wegenast shared an incredible testimony. In short, they wanted to learn about favor and what it looked like to follow and walk in the Lords favor. They gave what they didn’t have and received what they couldn’t afford. At first they didn’t feel like they were seeing any return on their giving or walking in the favor they were desperate to know about. After a hard week their landlord calls to ask them to move out of their house. So Ryan posts a tweet just to see if anyone had a place they could stay.

They get a tweet back from a couple that attend Grace Center saying they have a house they could stay in for free. After Ryan explains how he expected for the house to be a fixer-upper they show a photo….and the house is huge. It’s remarkably similar to the houses I was unwisely judging just a few days prior.

I couldn’t help but cry and just laugh at the goodness of our God. It didn’t stop there. A few more times that week God used little things here and there to simply teach me about his goodness.

On top of God showing me the extravagant things he loves to give to his children. I was overwhelmed with joy just thinking about all my close brothers and sisters who are being given their hearts desires! From moving to Iceland to attending a sailing dts to being accepted into the school of supernatural life! Oh it’s so wonderful!

I don’t have much else to share and I feel like this blog has not stuck to one train-of-thought but I just want to remind you to think about all the things for which you are thankful. Even the small things like ice cream or sunshine. Write ’em down and praise Jesus for them. It’s been said a few times this week: if you’re busy being thankful it will download supernatural joy into your hearts and you wont have time to complain about what isn’t happening. Rejoice in what is!

Life is wonderful.

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Falling In Love

Last week was a pretty intense week, and at the beginning of this week I think I was still recovering and processing stuff that the Lord was showing me last week. I was relieved to find out that this week’s topic was relationships. How hard can a week on relationships be?
We started the week with a little bit of review (for us DTS students)–Ron (the speaker, from Colombia, MO) drew some diagrams and talked about not putting up walls because it blocks others out, loving your neighbor and being interdependent on the Father, Son & Holy Spirit. Great things to take note of and a crucial foundation to any relationship, romantic or not. In conversation he asked me what I would like to know about relationships. I thought about it for a moment and decided it would be really nice to learn how to unconditionally love annoying people (haha). Ron planned to teach on just that the following day…teaching us how to walk through life with a heart of peace–not judging others–and not becoming focused on the hurt (annoyance) someone causes you. When you start magnifying this you become blinded and distracted from the race.

“You were running a good race. Who cut in on you to keep you from obeying the truth?”
Galatians 5:7

All of this was great stuff, but still light compared to last week.
I spoke to soon,but before I can share what happened next I feel like I need to backtrack a little bit…

Earlier this year I went to an Encounter weekend where I discovered an ungodly belief I carried:  Somewhere in my life I decided to make a general belief about men, that they were destructive beings and not worth my trust. I believed that the only role men played in my life was to hurt, abandon or abuse. This was due to past Father figures, boyfriends and other authority figures. The Lord started healing this just this year, he brought some amazing brothers into my life and started opening my eyes to the beauty of his sons. He opened my eyes and showed me that when I expect men to fail and believe that they are destructive I am calling Gods sons less than who they are; they are sons of the kingdom! Full of worth and great inheritance!

Fast-forward to Wednesday Ron gets in front of the class and shares a heart-breaking story about a young girls road to restoration after she had been attacked by a man. Ron told us that the Lord asked him in that situation to get on his face in front of this girl and speak the words of the Father: ” This was not my will for you. Here I come humbly to you.” Ron then stood in the gap and asked for forgiveness on behalf of the attacker.

By the end of the story I, along with most everyone was tearing up and I wasn’t prepared for what was coming next. Ron turns and addresses the girls in the room and begins to tell us that he wanted to stand in that gap for us; he wanted to apologize and ask for forgiveness in place of the men who had damaged and hurt us. He came to us and got down on his knees took all the weight of other men’s wrong doings in our lives..and asked for forgiveness. Oh my heart….
Throughout last week I felt as though my heart was going to burst, it was actually painful. And although I did receive breakthrough, it wasn’t enough to feel a release in my heart; but in this moment my heart finally burst and sweet refreshing water was finally able to flow in. There is so much more building up to this moment, but some of it is a little to personal to share on the world-wide web.

I think the main thing was the realization that by me holding onto the hurt…constantly saying “but this person hurt me!” as a subconscious excuse to not fully forgive, it was making my heart ache–and distracting me from the race.

Oh sweet release.

We then moved onto marriage and love…oh joy joy.
The teaching was a little more on the open dialogue side…and I think he had a great answer to the question of whether or not God tells us who are future spouse is: he pointed out that God can’t promise you something that requires someone elses free-will–brilliant. He may on the other hand say “this would a good one.” while nudging and winking at you. :)

What I got out of what he had to say was basically every love story is going to be unique and different, that’s the beauty of it. It’s just wise to make sure your mind, spirit and emotions are all balance–and although God may not be clearly saying “this is the one” still be in counsel with Him. You and your love could completely feel as though you got a divine word that confirmed the love you had, it could be full of risk and movie-esque fate moments or it could be something easy flowing like a friendship into marriage. Either way its beautiful.

“Being in love is a good thing, but it is not the best thing. There are many things below it, but there are also things above it. You cannot make it the basis of a whole life. It is a noble feeling, but it is still a feeling… Knowledge can last, principles can last, habits can last; but feelings come and go… But, of course, ceasing to be “in love” need not mean ceasing to love. Love in this second sense — love as distinct from “being in love” — is not merely a feeling. It is a deep unity, maintained by the will and deliberately strengthened by habit; reinforced by the grace which both partners ask, and receive, from God… “Being in love” first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enables them to keep the promise. It is on this love that the engine of marriage is run: being in love was the explosion that started it.” -C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity.

What a healing, intense and lovely week.

Happy Airwaves!

I don’t even know where to begin on updating you all. This week has been so jam-packed each day with so much!

The lectures this week have been on the cross + redemption and all the teaching has been done by Halldór Nikulás:

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The teachings this week totally ripped up my foundation and relaid it. Revelation that has always been there in the word–but I haven’t grasped it till now. It’s changed everything! He helped me see and realize more truth than ever. Halldór started with the parallels–I have a new understanding and renewed trust in God after realizing HOW MUCH he actually does pay attention to details!

A couple of things he touched on: *Eve was Adam’s bride who was created out of his side rib. We are Christs bride, made pure by him dying on the cross–when he was dead they pierced his side, so The Bride of Christ was created out of his side as well. *In the Garden of Eden Adam + Eve said through their actions “Not your will God, but ours.” In the Garden of Gethsemane Jesus cries out “not my will Father, but yours.” *The crowd demanded the release of Barabbas (Luke 23:18-20), Barabbas means “son of the Father.” He was guilty, but freed–this represents us. **One more: At transfiguration Peter, James and John were with him; John=grace, James=replaces, Peter=stone. Grace replaces the Law—what freedom we have! And that’s what this week has been–so freeing!

Not only have we got to hear from the wonderful Halldór, we also got to hear from Eric St. Clair on our thursday night seminars. He spoke on the beattitudes–and taking every though captive.–this was also freeing because mostly when I’ve heard a “keeping your thoughts captive” message its always referring to sin, but he also added keeping your thoughts captive so that the enemy cannot plant lies, taking that first thought captive and casting it out before it has time to turn into an emotion.

In the latter part of last week I experienced swimming in Iceland! The pool is heated and then they have 4 hot tubs at 4 different temperatures to suit what is most comfortable to you, how cool is that? It goes all the way up to 108 degrees! I also has my first Icelandic Hot Dog–which is AMAZING. The hot dog stand is really close to the cafe so we go there quite often—-delicious.

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This week was also the start of the infamous Iceland Airwaves so that has been fun being able to hear some Icelandic music. It’s so beautiful! We went to see some friends of ours that we met through Michelle, their band Mukkaló at Hit húsið & at Nikita and I was in awe at their music, so peaceful.

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We caught some other bands as well throughout the week:

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Today while on our way to our “pro-cess/process” (there’s a difference depending on your accent, haha) we stopped at a yummy bakery:IMG_0782 IMG_0780 IMG_0783

The beauty here continues taking my breath away! I walked down to the ocean after class one day and just sat and stared forever, “are you serious?” I thought. I get to live in this beautiful place while learning more about God and my calling? This has to be a dream. Michelle and I were even sitting at the show tonight looking at each other just in awe of where we were. Sitting on the top floor of a clothing shop in downtown Reykjavik, we could look out the window and see the main street and we were listening to incredible music! All I can do is laugh and thank the Lord.

Love,

Felicia

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Engagement Photos 4/17

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“There is no fear in love, for the greatest love casteth out fear” John 4:18